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sorry for being tactless

sorry for causing you any pain and difficulty

I wish I could just simplify this

but this is life

I just live with it

this is me

no more explanations

I'm tired of this drama

if you don't trust me

don't

no force

no pressure

live with it

or leave

as simple as that

this time, I will never beg you to stay...if you believe you can't handle me, leave me...

no worries

I have started loving myself

No one can handle me

so I used to leave anyone behind because they used to handle me

how can anybody just tell you what to do

I live the way I want my life be

I say what my heart speaks

tactless as I am

but that is what I am feeling

you can't take it?

leave

If you care

just let me

be me

That shall pass

in time

no force 

never

Let me be me

I let you be you

I said I am sorry

I know this cycle well

Getting used to somehow

Learning to shrug my shoulder and get over

course of life

I am numb of pain

These things do not matter 

these things do not matter a lot this time as they used to before.

Barren & Barred

By Michelle Fetalvero

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Walking towards

Nowhere

Mired pair 

naked tiptoeing 

Nailed

onto the wall 

of our past

is my soul

wandering-

searching for no one

but the old self

I talked to 

a decade ago---

your broken mirror

reflects

-

Who?

An Empty Soul

promising 

shallow facade 

oh-

deceiving-

demanding-

Must

I 

give 

UP?

Nothing.

No one.

No man-

No!

I let go of our memories

Thrivin'---

Yes!

I shall

give 

IN to

Nothing.

No one.

No man.

Never.

Missin' You

By Michelle Fetalvero

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I can stare at your

glistening eyes,

from dawn to dusk ---

I can breathe in your

manly crisp scent, unscented --- fresh,

from this pillow to sweet dreams -

I can roll my tongue to your

flesh,

from head to toe -

I can brush my cheeks to your

pounding chest,

from calm to the fastest rhythm ---

I can lend my ears to your

moaning, whining,

from silly to mystical exaggerations .

I can blanket your 

soul -

from emptiness to vastness of

Love, Faith and Hope.

I can ---

for I love you so,

with all God's might -

I will.

P. S. I miss you so.

Though We Might Get Both Busy

By Michelle Fetalvero

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I love you 

with my eyes closed

with my body at a rest mode

with my soul in a peaceful state

But 

I will love you more

with my eyes torn open

with my body shakin'

with my soul toxic-filled

And -

I will love you forever

with an overflowing tears of joy

that We keep strong

Under the bleak clouds and rainbow.

Unfathomable

By Michelle Fetalvero

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She-

Relinquishes Pride

for her Children

Career ---

plateauing in a humdrum

She-

Resisting to swim

In the shallow 

Ditch 

of the Workplace---in Complacence 

She---

smiles at you warmly

for disparaging her 

indomitable spirit

unscathed---she flies away

She---

feels every drop of pain

of her children,

of her mother,

of her sister,

and of her brothers...

but She---

chooses to taste the lingering sorrow---

so she can freely 

empty grey from the soul-

She prefers

happiness than revenge.

she-

the quintessential ---

the woman

of valiant and wisdom.

Losing Appetite in Love

By Michelle Fetalvero

i warned you...

before tying the knot-

when I -- am depressed,

not to press me harder

into a downward spiral...

your feather Touch---

sending shiver to my spine

now evolves to Ice Pick

etching the cold boundaries 

in our fire-turned-ice abode.

callous Heart from Aches---of Numerous parties.

extracting the veins.

connected to yours.

denying all the coming---

proposal of reconciliation.

Come, and let me hug your Repenting Soul-

But I shall let you go---

for I cannot swallow your daunting scent,

anymore, nevermore---

Gone are the tastebuds of Love for you.

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unsinkable Spirit

By Michelle Fetalvero

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i am a free soul -

once marched with a troop of sham -

held captive for twenty four 

undignifying years.

i am a free soul,

spotted by the kaleidoscope,

dancing in hues,

for Unity, never in Conformity.

i am a free soul!

a seed of endless hope in me -

enriched in Valor,

coupled with colossal Faith.

i am a free.

act and

stand for fairness

You better stop handcuffing 

chaining, oppressing my individuality

you never can...

He gifted me an unsinkable soul.

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Because I Cannot Answer Yet

By Michelle Fetalvero

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Because I do not know 

until when to Love you this much ---

if a Change in the Wind

that - a cold mist bites your lips -

let's gather all the Flames,

seep into my deepest fiber -

lock me in your arms -

together, 

we shall sway -

inside that bluish fire 

to redeem Love -

to incarnate Faith -

to chase that love-struck look -

to rekindle Passion -

to meet Seventh Heaven -

we tasted once,

when we're lost Souls---Wanderers.

 

And because I do not know

why I Love You this much ---

let me devote the remainder of my Life

with you,

unraveling why.

Moved by Your Green Pen

by Michelle Fetalvero

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Cheers to the nib of your finger -

Sprinkling letters,

Jugglin' with words ---

Dissolvin' the message ---

Resoundin' her longing ---

Grapplin' to outweigh the yearning ---

Boundaries set

the margined paper --- alone---

But Faith lives on ---

because I am

moved by Your green Pen.

Because I could not Pause Time

by Michelle Fetalvero

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I shall bare all of me ---

Layin' down all to you,

Offerin' every rhythm of my system!

I love you more than the distance ---

and time that keep us apart ---

I love you beyond the space,

and age ---

the state, the zones

overcharging complexities

but I love you anyway

from its simplest form

to the grandest impression

Thank you for always

touchin' my heart ---

yours, pumpin' next to mine-

that it can almost hear

your fast heart-beating

and if God chooses ---

I shall but stay close you 

to seize every second

of holdin' you...

of caressin' you...

of kissin' you...

of lovin' you...

all throughout my golden days.

to the nth POWER

by Michelle Fetalvero

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for the nth time -

I wrong before your eyes

Your hand

holds mine,

tighter--- firmer.

for the nth time -

I turn my back on You

Your arms

wrap me still,

more gently --- more kindly

for the nth time -

I throw harsh words on You

Your heart 

welcomes me freely,

sweeter --- warmer

for the nth time -

I walk away from You

Your feet

consistently follow me,

more patiently --- more lovingly 

And this,

for the nth time ---

I tell You

Thank You --- 

For never forsaking me,

I will always love You.

Because My Soul Steps in Quicksand

By Michelle Fetalvero

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afloat ---

     my feelings ---

                in this pit.

                         my pride - beaten              

                                     you whip hard

                             etching letters of pain  

                    into my inner core

          you --- stay fixed

and i captive ---                

          of your spell -

                    faintly, I draw hope -

                           slush covering my toes

                                    my Sunshine, I...

                                             need You!

Under the same blanket

By Michelle Fetalvero

You held me so tight---
Those warm starry nights- 
the golden days of 
my life.
Yet, you talked too loose---
On my slimy fingers, counted when're 
your words right.

Decisive as 
you were,
Urged Mr. Fate locked
us ---
in a whitish paper.
Friction worked hard---
too hot in between---walls,
Then tons of troubles chased 
us after.


How I admire -
your principles.
How I hate -
your hasty nasty decisions.
Circumstances were only either-or ---   ---  ---
We sweat cold -
under the blanket of flames.
We did suffocate ---
under the cold blackish sky.


Still ---
in this dead-end ---
every soft morning,
reminded me---
It was we --- too hot or too cold ---
together ---  ---  ---
under this same blanket.

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By Michelle Fetalvero

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Two years from now ---
She wakes up in your warmth
Her petite flexes wrapped around your arms
She loves be hypnotized and intoxicated with your manly scent
As she gasps in awe in the rhythm of your morning breath
For she allows herself melt under your passionate tongue.


Two months from now ---
As she cuddles the life-sized pillows next to her
Wondering a fairy godmother would pop-in her darkest room
Then grant her wish to sleep - with you ------
While the coldness stirs her awake senses
She longs to be held by you.


Two days from now ---
The two opposite worlds keep upside down
A parting you from her
She terribly misses you --- every inch of your flesh and depth -
You, the better-half of her being, lingering through her soul.


Two seconds from now ---
Her phone might ring
Bemused of the future complications
Teary-eyed she struggles to conquer the fear
"Shall my love for you prevail?" you might ask ---
The wait is over -
Her sweet reply, "Together, we will."

Dipole

By Michelle Fetalvero

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We, parallel beans

 seated on red sand --

 Strings unseen

 In the height of my dreams

 Your tiny lingers

 Your Fire succumbed to my Coldness,

 to the most romantic night.

 Never we will bump

Till you fill in my blank --

 Intersecting in deep Mirage

 Unclothed we dance -----

 Sweetly --- our Vines intertwined ---

 Our greens sprout, smilingly ---

We, parallel beans ---

seated on red sand.

Ephemeral

 By Michelle Fetalvero

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barefooted –

I sneaked to your Place.

 

I sang in Silence –

I danced with Death –

 

Posies I scented –

Petals sketched the planks,

Withered –--

Huskily faded ----

 

You, my Quiet love, I am soon

to taste in Circle.

That Carnival

By Michelle Fetalvero

Thanks, Ferris!

i decided to risk 

a 45-pound of flesh and fat

to taste

The heavenly flight

to face

The fear to fall

O Fog, i feel your coldness 

Kissing my pinkish Cheeks

Oh, ecstatic joy

then we slowly descend

The only time we feel

The momentum is over

that we will only appreciate the ride

wishin' to ascend again 

to taste

The summit

so I rode the kite

at that height

I was saddened by the plight

The oppressed 

Overwhelmed by the lights

Slowly Fading

I was faced with the truth

Behind the dancing lights

Are faces of struggling wanderers

I decided to get off

and On the same ground

Oh, i met Truth

Up there are masked faces and delusions,

Tinged with pseudo-beauty.

Down here are the bold faces of reality

Abused filled with Wrath.

Our tickets no more

Thanks, Ferris!

For the ride, i enjoy

Spending a penny

I see the two faces of the coin.

Till the next round

On another ground

Where Ferris is mounted

i shall come

If this worth

My final penny

I shall still spend

And that color game awaits.

FREE - damn

By Michelle Fetalvero

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my jailer ---

you suck

my energy dry -

while He refuels me

in the most subtle 

awakening 

from the nightmare

you set me in

you left me

captive 

in your depressed fantasy ---

us -- together, 

sorry.

set me free.

entitled to love

By Michelle Fetalvero

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i love your spontaneity -

i love your impatience -

i love your randomness -

i love your tactlessness.

these swear pinch my soul,

but I can bear the swings and fall ---

for I love you,

despite all.